I expected my first comeback post to be a cheerful post about how happy I'm back to blogger but this is what it has become. Sigh.

I raised my voice at my mother in the public just now. It was a peaceful visit to the library. But on the way to the multi-storey carpark, she started to nag about how dangerous Thailand is.

It started with,...

"XX told me these few days keep on bombing leh!"
"So what you want now? Cancel it right now? It's too late already, you should've told me earlier"
"I was against it from the beginning. Why too late? Just tell her I against it lah! Then cancel everything, she can't do anything what"
"Funny, when she settled everything already?"
I could've kept my cool, until she said, "Do you treasure your life more or those people who earn money from you just looking at them sing? Don't tell me you are so crazy that...."
"YOU KEEP TELLING ME TO NOT WASTE MONEY AND NOW YOU'RE DUMPING 800 BUCKS
DOWN THE DRAIN LIKE THAT? WHY DON'T YOU RETURN ME MY MONEY?!?!"

Because we were walking along a HDB corridor that wasn't as empty as I thought, people were staring as soon as those words escaped my mouth. Crap, I hate attracting attention from strangers in that way more than anything.

This is so fucked up. Now I don't even know what to do.

With all those bombings going on, what if (choy lah hor), they happen to target the shopping centre I was in, or worse, the concert venue? What if, that'll mark the end of my unfufilling sixteen years of life? What if, even if I don't die, I get kidnapped and sold to Pattang(or something), the red light district, and forced to sleep with disgusting hairy Angmohs for the rest of my life? All these 'What Ifs' started racing across my mind.

Now I don't even know if I really want to go. I didn't at first. I mean, what's the use going for a concert that consist largely (Suju:13 + SNSD:9 = majority) of people I don't even have interest in? What made me decide to go, exactly? Skith? Shopping? NOW, I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF THE CONCERT WOULD CONTINUE, FUCK.

All those fucked up protestors in Bangkok, why did you have to fucking choose a timing like this? IF YOU THINK VIOLENCE/KILLING PEOPLE IS GONNA KEEP THAKSIN AWAY FROM BANGKOK, YOU ARE THE MOST FUCKED UP DUMBWIT I'VE SEEN, I SWEAR. WITH ALL THIS VIOLENCE GOING ON, THE MORE HE WOULD THINK, "OH HOLY! MY PEOPLE ARE IN DANGER, I NEED TO SAVE THEM, SO I SHALL RETURN" RIGHT?! OH MY GOD YOU PEOPLE ARE SUCH RETARDS. FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. If it wasn't for YOUR EMPTY LITTLE SKULLS, my mother would've let it go. AND ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS TO HAPPILY BOMB EACH OTHER AND ALONG GOES MY AFTER-Os VACATION. BOOM, BYE BYE!

If I was firm about going to Thailand, my mother wouldn't be able to do much, because well, I'm Yanjun. But now, I don't even know whether I truly want to go ahead with the trip. Especially after she tried to tempt me by saying, "Why don't you go to some other country?" THEN KOREA CAME INTO THE PICTURE AND SO DID THE 30th DEC/1st JAN BIG BANG CONCERT. I've seen Dongbang once, and I think I've seen enough. What I really really really want is to see Big Bang. To see them perform Lies, Haru Haru and Sunset Glow?! Not to mention Crazy Dog, This Love, Big Boy, Look at me, Gwisun ANDDDDDD THE POSSIBILITY OF HAVING HYORI AS THEIR GUEST?!??!?!??!

Dang.

说归说，the Thailand trip will still stick unless something HUGE happens that will put my life on the line. Like, DUSIT THANI COLLASPED, or PROTESTORS ANNOUNCED THAT THEY WILL TARGET THE KOREAN CONCERT ON 29TH NOV.

If I ever drew out, so many people would be affected.

WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW, TELL ME.

Labels: Bangkok, Big Bang Concert, Family, First post, Korea, SM Concert

17 this year and currently schooling at nyjc. I belong to a chaotic class with truly awesome people (well,mostly). I couldn't care less on what you think about me. I have my fair share of close loved ones: my mother, brother, grandmother, my bestest best friend Danial, the six girls that never fail to make me smile, KTHXBAI! and not to forget my Baby, Bambi, who means the wholefuckingworld to me. And they are all that matter. So either learn to be nice or leave me alone. Idc. Facebook

I expected my first comeback post to be a cheerful post about how happy I'm back to blogger but this is what it has become. Sigh.

I raised my voice at my mother in the public just now. It was a peaceful visit to the library. But on the way to the multi-storey carpark, she started to nag about how dangerous Thailand is.

It started with,...

"XX told me these few days keep on bombing leh!"
"So what you want now? Cancel it right now? It's too late already, you should've told me earlier"
"I was against it from the beginning. Why too late? Just tell her I against it lah! Then cancel everything, she can't do anything what"
"Funny, when she settled everything already?"
I could've kept my cool, until she said, "Do you treasure your life more or those people who earn money from you just looking at them sing? Don't tell me you are so crazy that...."
"YOU KEEP TELLING ME TO NOT WASTE MONEY AND NOW YOU'RE DUMPING 800 BUCKS
DOWN THE DRAIN LIKE THAT? WHY DON'T YOU RETURN ME MY MONEY?!?!"

Because we were walking along a HDB corridor that wasn't as empty as I thought, people were staring as soon as those words escaped my mouth. Crap, I hate attracting attention from strangers in that way more than anything.

This is so fucked up. Now I don't even know what to do.

With all those bombings going on, what if (choy lah hor), they happen to target the shopping centre I was in, or worse, the concert venue? What if, that'll mark the end of my unfufilling sixteen years of life? What if, even if I don't die, I get kidnapped and sold to Pattang(or something), the red light district, and forced to sleep with disgusting hairy Angmohs for the rest of my life? All these 'What Ifs' started racing across my mind.

Now I don't even know if I really want to go. I didn't at first. I mean, what's the use going for a concert that consist largely (Suju:13 + SNSD:9 = majority) of people I don't even have interest in? What made me decide to go, exactly? Skith? Shopping? NOW, I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF THE CONCERT WOULD CONTINUE, FUCK.

All those fucked up protestors in Bangkok, why did you have to fucking choose a timing like this? IF YOU THINK VIOLENCE/KILLING PEOPLE IS GONNA KEEP THAKSIN AWAY FROM BANGKOK, YOU ARE THE MOST FUCKED UP DUMBWIT I'VE SEEN, I SWEAR. WITH ALL THIS VIOLENCE GOING ON, THE MORE HE WOULD THINK, "OH HOLY! MY PEOPLE ARE IN DANGER, I NEED TO SAVE THEM, SO I SHALL RETURN" RIGHT?! OH MY GOD YOU PEOPLE ARE SUCH RETARDS. FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. If it wasn't for YOUR EMPTY LITTLE SKULLS, my mother would've let it go. AND ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS TO HAPPILY BOMB EACH OTHER AND ALONG GOES MY AFTER-Os VACATION. BOOM, BYE BYE!

If I was firm about going to Thailand, my mother wouldn't be able to do much, because well, I'm Yanjun. But now, I don't even know whether I truly want to go ahead with the trip. Especially after she tried to tempt me by saying, "Why don't you go to some other country?" THEN KOREA CAME INTO THE PICTURE AND SO DID THE 30th DEC/1st JAN BIG BANG CONCERT. I've seen Dongbang once, and I think I've seen enough. What I really really really want is to see Big Bang. To see them perform Lies, Haru Haru and Sunset Glow?! Not to mention Crazy Dog, This Love, Big Boy, Look at me, Gwisun ANDDDDDD THE POSSIBILITY OF HAVING HYORI AS THEIR GUEST?!??!?!??!

Dang.

说归说，the Thailand trip will still stick unless something HUGE happens that will put my life on the line. Like, DUSIT THANI COLLASPED, or PROTESTORS ANNOUNCED THAT THEY WILL TARGET THE KOREAN CONCERT ON 29TH NOV.

If I ever drew out, so many people would be affected.

WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW, TELL ME.

Labels: Bangkok, Big Bang Concert, Family, First post, Korea, SM Concert

Edited by Mira Muhayat.
Basecodes by twenty.
Background / Color